I LOVE YOU, BUT I AM CONFUSED

Tonight, days after anticipating

I hoped we don't go our separate ways

It hurts too much to lose you

There is really nothing I could do

Why you are hanging out with me

Got me the whole night thinking

This too good to be true

To love someone unique, beautiful as you

What is the catch, please tell me?

Do you love me out of pity?

Because I told you at night I can't sleep

Not even the moon could steer my mood 

Believe me, I am much as you are confused

Maybe it is because I took too much caffeine

That I am hallucinating about my feelings

But the heart thinks otherwise, she wants to be with you

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CONTENTION

While the night lies
Tiny drops of water slipped through my mind
The stars had an early nap
Life felt ample quiet after it rained

Exempted to the sound of my heartbeat
Which insisted we stay up late
To figure out the state of my mind
An habit I have become accustomed to lately

The wind is pretty tonight
Maybe it is because the moon asked her out
I could tell, the moment she wouldn't stop talking
So I shutdown the window blinds

With disguise I was feeling sleepy
But for a moment I felt jealous
I was spending the night alone
Just had a fight with my fiancee

This left me vexatious, I try to curtail my emotion
At one point, I wished it was not a bad dream
I wouldn't have to hide my heart under the pillow
So no one would get to notice

How lonely and miserable life could be
But this is not about holding back my feelings
Not about the complexity of the human mind
But the true perception of an imperfect life

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UNDERNEATH THE SMILE

Don't misjudge me
Because I wear a smile
That life is not resentful 
We all have problems buried wetin

Life is but a journey
Man must trek through
I have had my own share of regrets
My feelings too have being compromised

I break down and cry
Can not always hold the tears looming in my eyes 
There is that urgency
To hide behind the door 

But the state of my mind
Subduing the negativity in my head
It rains and fell upon my wretched heart
Took away doubt, rejection, insecurity

Depression that was once creeping in my mind
Then the sun came knocking at my door
My contentment blew wild
Ever since I have being wearing a smile

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