WAIT IN VAIN

It has been three days waiting for your call
I looked out the window for a sign
Maybe the wind will whisper to me
If you are missing me terribly too

Please tell me if waiting for you is right
I will do anything to have you in my arms
Should you not find me at home
I am waiting under the stars for you

Maybe if it rained yesterday, it wouldn't today
The heart misses you and your warm smile
Heart leaps in ecstasy waiting for your love
Waiting to have a kiss that is long overdue

I am incomplete without you
Please do not make me wait in vain
Every passing day, my feelings is torn apart
I hate feeling like this because you are my world

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Pencil drawing.

In the village of Rizios in the Dolomite Mountains.

THE COLOUR OF MY HEART

the colour of my heart blooms 
when i see you,
thinking someday we could get through,
when it's all good

the colour of my heart fades 
when you walk away,
trying to build a life with what's left
this bleeding never ends
please, all i want is for you to stay.

yet, one day you will disappeared,
nothing heard,no tears streams
i will be strong yet still teared within,
in the galaxy of my own soul

it wasn't i, it wasn't i , it was you
it was the life that seperated us
without sign,without telling 
Like the winds changed in our hearts

though am still chasing, still hoping,
wondering how am i even loving,
this feeling i couldn't resist every morning and evening,

i want to stop, it was deceiving,
please, let myself stop believing.

maybe you realized how pathetic 
i am to you,
how unforgiven and not deserving,
but i already knew that 
but thought your love was home 
for who i was

yes, it was so damn true 
now the sadness inside me want to get through, i'm so tired thinking what am i supposed to do.

between us, it's over,
but you said " we can't predict our future,"
once again, i believed,
extremely funny, I AM THE ONLY ONE who believes,

Please, just tell me you love me even if it's not true, 
there i go again am finding it hard to let go

This is the last time i'll be fooled by you.

— m e r v i j a n n —