THE COLOUR OF MY HEART

the colour of my heart blooms 
when i see you,
thinking someday we could get through,
when it's all good

the colour of my heart fades 
when you walk away,
trying to build a life with what's left
this bleeding never ends
please, all i want is for you to stay.

yet, one day you will disappeared,
nothing heard,no tears streams
i will be strong yet still teared within,
in the galaxy of my own soul

it wasn't i, it wasn't i , it was you
it was the life that seperated us
without sign,without telling 
Like the winds changed in our hearts

though am still chasing, still hoping,
wondering how am i even loving,
this feeling i couldn't resist every morning and evening,

i want to stop, it was deceiving,
please, let myself stop believing.

maybe you realized how pathetic 
i am to you,
how unforgiven and not deserving,
but i already knew that 
but thought your love was home 
for who i was

yes, it was so damn true 
now the sadness inside me want to get through, i'm so tired thinking what am i supposed to do.

between us, it's over,
but you said " we can't predict our future,"
once again, i believed,
extremely funny, I AM THE ONLY ONE who believes,

Please, just tell me you love me even if it's not true, 
there i go again am finding it hard to let go

This is the last time i'll be fooled by you.

— m e r v i j a n n —